yf – you did it again
Yup, you sure did.
You rocked my world.
You changed lives. You inspired some. You moved some to explore ministry for themselves. You helped others become aware of pain in their lives and take those first steps towards healing.
For me, you affirmed my call. You helped me understand how I fit into this thing we call Maritime Conference. You helped me see the power and importance of a listening ear and an attentive presence.
You helped me see the beauty of the world through the eyes of our teens.
All of this in just 72 hours.
In a way, this weekend God brought me back to where He started with me. How in 2002-2003 God helped me understand I have a call to ministry, which began by working with the youth group at Parkdale United in Ottawa. I guess I’m kind of moving towards completing the circle.
Some highlights from YF14 for me:
- meeting everyone and seeing their smiling faces as they gathered and met friends they haven’t seen since last year
- the band… no words can describe
- worship, praise, energy, power
- Saturday night communion: Starting in a darkened room with groups in circles. Guided meditation leading to communion where they shared stories. A sacred time which led into incredible praise and dancing to end the night, a much needed release after a long and emotional day.
- watching friends be ordained on Sunday morning, and so happy to have been part of their journeys
- the complete love we all have for one another, despite our differences
I went into YF14 thinking this could be it. That I would take a couple years away to focus on other things. But…. I don’t think I can. The connections made, the “pressure” from the youth to come back, the realization that I have something to offer… I don’t think I can turn away. Not yet at least. God has more for me to explore here.
There’s so much more than can be said, but I’m not exactly sure how to say it.
Youth Forum is more than a program which runs alongside the business meeting of Maritime Conference.
Youth Forum is a family.
A family which welcomes everyone from every walk of life, every journey… even old fellas like me.
We walk together. We support each other. We rally around each other. Something that was exampled again and again this year during some difficult, emotional, even raw discussions at times.
To my YF family. You are beautiful people. You have much to offer, and you offer it freely and openly.
Don’t let anyone tell you that you are anything different. Don’t let anyone tell you that you have nothing to give. Don’t let anyone tell you that you are not beautiful people.
I’ve seen the real you.
And you are beautiful, caring, amazing children of God.
Go and be the blessing to others that you have been to me.
*photos courtesy Maritime Conference Youth Forum photographer, Gordon Williams
thoughts on a “college of ministers”
This past Friday, the United Church of Canada’s “Comprehensive Review” task force hosted an online discussion on something it proposed in it’s report “Fishing on the Other Side” (found here).
One of the radical suggestions the report had was a “College of Ministers”. Akin to the Bar for lawyers or similar professional organizations for doctors, psychologists, and so on.
I watched this discussion with great interest, because this would have great impact on my position within the church as clergy. So I need to understand what is happening, and I need to have the opportunity for input.
Below are some of my thoughts on the topic. If you would like to see the video yourself, here it is:
And here are my first thoughts in the few hours since I’ve watched the video (twice).
My initial reaction (and the same for other clergy I’ve talked with) was the urge to be ill. We are seriously concerned about how this will work.
The Comprehensive Review task group was invited to propose a future for the United Church of Canada. So they’ve taken a bold step in proposing what they have in the “Fishing on the Other Side” document. It is a very different approach that’s for sure. I commend them for willing to take a risk and step outside of the norm.
However, in doing so they have created more holes and concerns than one can entirely capture in a single blog post. So I shall try and stay focused on the “College of Clergy” component of this document and video above.
The “college” will be a mandatory structure in denomination. All ministry personnel will be required to join. It will handle the discipline, the oversight, and the admission of all ministry personnel within the denomination. It will “hold ministers accountable”… a statement that worries me greatly. This college will act primarily on a “complaint model”, meaning it will only interact with ministry personnel if there are complaints (aside from the admissions process).
It was said in the presentation that 80% of our volunteer work at the local level is supporting clergy who are struggling. So with 5 staff at the national level, they propose to take on all this work with these staff and a volunteer board. If we are indeed spending so much time dealing with ministry personnel issues, I’m not sure how this can be more efficient, both in use of time and finances.
I don’t really see how this would work in cases of clergy abuse. “Fishing on the Other Side” actually reduces the oversight of local ministry units quite a bit. So where is the oversight and discipline of ministry units going to fall? Where does a minister go in this case?
If these issues go to the proposed “association of ministers”, I cannot see how this association would have any power at the local level. Yet this is where “minor” issues are supposed to go (those issues outside of major abuses by clergy).
And speaking of the “association of ministers”, this is apparently an “optional” membership for clergy, but I believe it was said all clergy will be required to pay for it (there was a slight audio glitch during that statement, so cannot be 100% sure).
The “college” would be mandatory. It handles admissions and discipline. Because this is all it does, the “association” is also required to exist. The “association” is nothing more than a union by another name, because it’s functional description sounds like a union. There wouldn’t be the same legal standing, because to unionize nationally would be difficult given different provincial labour laws. So the alternative is to call this union an “association”.
Paul Miller reminds us in the video that our current structure does so much more than just react to complaints. Our presbyteries are overseeing relationships, and these can only be monitored at a local level, with people we know, with people we are in relationship with already. This new model loses this relationship aspect and removes it to a “professional” level where we call 1-800 numbers and get a case number while we wait for the qualified staff to call us back.
This is adopting a secular model in a faith based organization. This is a major concern. It is also taking power away from local leadership and pulling it into head office. We are a grassroots church, or at least we’re supposed to be. Yet what I see is the consolidation of power and decision making at the national level. We also heard this probably won’t be any cheaper than existing processes. So what’s the point if we already can do these things at a local level? There is no acknowledgement to the loss of local nuances and knowledge we will suffer in the new model.
I also have great concerns over the admissions process with this model. As I am one who is in disagreement with some stances the denomination has taken in recent years, yet am in full agreement with the founding statements of the denomination, where does someone like myself fall in the admissions process? Inside or out? Are we creating a society of “like minded” ministers? I’m hopeful that we aren’t, but the possibility is there as we look at what constitutes a “United Church minister”.
We have our problems with our current structure. We cannot ignore it. But there are some glaring holes in the whole “Fishing on the Other Side” proposal which cannot be ignored.
As Paul Miller said in the video, “Change is always the exchange of one set of problems for another.”
My concern is the new set of problems are far greater than the current set we have. We have examples in our denomination where the current structures are working, and working well. What can we learn from them? What are the best practices in what we already have?
I also have concern about how this will impact the churches I serve. I’m not sure this will improve their ministries. While it may not directly impact them, it will directly impact me, which in turn, impacts them.
I believe strongly that our denominational structures must change if we are to continue existing. It is a reality we must all face.
But, a “college of ministers” along with many of the other proposed changes by the Comprehensive Review raise far too many concerns that cannot be overlooked.
I am looking forward to seeing what other proposals for governance we might have surface in the coming months. And if you are looking at it, I’d be more than happy to talk to you about it.
Gifts
We all like gifts. Getting, giving, opening, buying… gifts are good.
But there’s another type of gift. There are gifts that are given to us for the specific reason to be shared.
I’m talking about our God given spiritual gifts.
For some reason, in my denomination we rarely hear anything about spiritual gifts. A realization I stumbled upon in conversation with a good friend who is wondering what is next in her ministry, and inspired by a speaker we had at our recent Cruxifusion conference.
Somehow we make it through an “intense” discernment process which helps identify those called to paid accountable ministry within the church, yet we never talk about the spiritual gifts God has blessed us with and how they might be offered to the church.
So here we have a bunch of clergy who do not fully understand what it is they offer, which has a significant impact on not only how they execute the ministries, but also on their pastoral identity within the churches and communities they work.
Is there any wonder why we have so many clergy on stress leave or in conflict with the churches they serve?
Thankfully I did a spiritual gifts inventory with some Baptist friends about a decade ago. Every so often I will go back and check to see what, if anything, has changed, and to make sure I am remembering what I bring to the church.
It helps me remember why I’m here, what it is I bring, and where my weaknesses are.
Yet, many of our clergy have no idea. And so they struggle with who they are as ministers and how they fit into the church.
How is this healthy?
If you are struggling with your identity, whether you are a minister or an active lay person in the church, you really should do some work around discovering your spiritual gifts. There are many resources out there you can use, and it wouldn’t hurt to explore more than one. Do it with your church! Or with a bunch of friends! But do it!
If you are a student… do it! It will help you to understand yourself better.
We don’t talk about these things nearly enough in the United Church of Canada. We talk about “affirming people’s gifts”, but usually that means we allow people to chase their passions… for better or for worse. Unless we explore the scriptural basis for our God given spiritual gifts, then our passions may not be pursued to their fullest.
Passion is good, but passion needs to be supported by the appropriate gifts.
If a church does not understand the gifts it has within its membership, how can it successfully reach the community in which it serves?
Simply… in most cases it can’t. (Yes there will be exceptions)
Imagine if our clergy, and the people who call our churches home, understood the gifts they have and how these gifts can be used to support the ministries we wish to carry out in our communities. Imagine how much more effective we could be in sharing God’s love with the world around us.
reflections
Woke up this morning to a beautiful day full of sunshine.

Thanks to my sister for digging out this “gem”
Today’s a bit of a special day I guess. Today I start my fifth decade. As with most significant numbers, it’s often a time of reflection. Today is no different.
20 years ago I was at Acadia University, studying Computer Science. Planning my life, looking forward to spending it building systems to better the world.
10 years ago my technology career was effectively over. I had already been to Ottawa and back, and was planning on attending school again to become a minister.
Today, I’m five years into this “career” and loving it and the people I meet.
Also 10 years ago this morning the phone rang. It was my mother. I expected to hear “Happy Birthday” but instead I heard “Gram is in bed and isn’t good. They don’t expect her to make it.” I jumped in the car, picking up my mother on the way, and raced to her home, but we were too late. She had already passed, peacefully.
Over the last 10 years I lost other family members, including 2 other grandparents.
On Sunday, my grandfather celebrated his 90th birthday. This WW2 veteran is a hero to me, more so every time the vets I come in contact with through my work as Royal Canadian Legion Chaplain shares another story with me.
I have 2 beautiful, amazing children.
I have an absolutely beautiful and wonderful wife who has now shared half my life with me.
I have awesome friends, even if they do live too far away to see them often enough.
The last year has been particularly interesting as things have changed I didn’t expect to change, and where I thought there might be change, nothing has happened.
My hair has thinned a bit. I’m certainly grayer. I’m a few pounds heavier than I might like to be. But I’m still in reasonably good shape, probably the best I have been in over the last 10 years. I can still run with the 20 somethings on the basketball court… for a while.
I have little to complain about I guess. I have many blessings in my life. Things are pretty good.
I even got out for a quick ride on the scooter before dinner tonight, even if the temp did drop to slightly lower than I might have preferred to ride in.
Thank you to everyone who is now, and has been part of my life. You’ve all impacted me in your own ways, and all for the better.
Be blessed.
Holy Saturday
It’s Saturday.
A day we often relax a bit in this house. I usually have a little bit to do in the office to finish up for Sunday morning, but for the most part the kids play, we relax as a family, we treat it… well… like a weekend!

Hat tip to Debbie McMillan for the image.
Today is the same, but different.
Yesterday was Good Friday and we were in church.
We worshipped with other churches in the town as we re-read the scriptures referring to Jesus’ sacrifice.
We removed our “traditional” church symbols from view. The Bible, the collection plates, the cup and plate.
All we had left was the cross, draped in cloth.
And now we wait…
This Saturday is more solemn. More reflective.
As we wait…
We wait…
And we wait…
Sunday cannot come fast enough.
Easter cannot come fast enough.
But we must wait…